working with myself

Invasion

These "Emergency" towers have invaded campus.
They have a camera on top and a loudspeaker.
They are in all the main areas and pathways.
It's bad.
Surveillance instills the constant awareness of being watched.
It keeps us in line to an unhealthy extent.
(plus no one gets raped on the UCSD campus, i looked it up)

my notebook

Nude Forms

T-shirt

I had this t-shirt printed. It's a photo of me naked. I have been wearing it everywhere for the past week. Responses have been fantastic!

No Smoking

I was over at the salk institute, nearby campus and i noticed this space. A nice shady place to sit away from the main buildings. I was struck by the no smoking sign, which was a major detractor from the ambiance, probably more of a detractor than an occasional smoker.
Somehow this particular sort of invasion seems very representative of our time. The invasion of spaces, not only through the restrictions themselves, but also in the way they are expressed.

Research Proposal

I applied for a grant to do research this summer at Calit2 (California institute of telecommunication and information technology). I want to look at immersive virtual environments in terms of the kinds of self and social awareness they can facilitate. You can read my proposal here

Vegas

In vegas for a weekend wedding, here are some pics i took.

Roadside

Engaging?

Photos

i collect these photos from swap meets and thrift stores. recently i have been scanning a few of them so i can do something with them digitally, and so they may last a bit longer.

Bad Commercials

(this was part of a correspondence with a group of friends in response to a link posted to an IBM commercial with the slogan: "stop thinking, start doing" see links below to watch the commercials)

In so many ways that series of IBM commercials can be seen as a monolithic tribute to normality.

the way these things effect us is profound, and potentially dangerous. These commercials will further the stagnant thinking we are so used to it. Their exaggeration transforms the radical into the outlandish maniac freak-nut bastards.

This is a continuing frustration of mine, the way that the radical is misunderstood. We can call for change and action, we can protest and rebel without losing our cool collection organization knowledge and skill.

and we must, because we are the genius of today.

and though we have no responsibilities, nothing matters and its all very good and bad, its a lot more fun good true and inspirational than the alternatives which culture has offered us.

be that freak-nut bastard, but keep your wits up and show those hard nosed pits what you stand for, and why.

allSidesIn

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdtlZIjdUJk&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziOG_GHNVq0

filming

I am working on a film piece revolving around paths.
heres a preview:

Calculus

I guess this is something happening in my life...
This is a one hour study session, sped up to minute and a half.

An Ephemeral Gesture

Constructing a shopping cart blockade

living

europe is bad. sweden is not the best country in the world, and i am a
bastard for seeing it that way. the netherlands suck.
you swine in
your luxury of passiveness.
I live at the cusp of abnormality, i am 20 minutes away from the most
active border in the world. its a hotbed. the exchanges going on here
are deeply humanic, deeply philosophical, and i am trying to find my
place among all this.

there is cognitive science which i look at as the base.
there is post modernism, which pushes the absurd towards me, and
reminds me how subjective this whole reality is.
and then there are
houses being given away here as trash, and the city of Tijuana builds
themselves with our used garage doors.

drop it, find a new way.
do something better.
these are my thoughts, when i self reflect.

yet i make these works of art which call attention to the problems,
i;m trying to force awareness as i lay on the ground its watching me, and its important, but why does
no one react.
lets get this guy out of here. hes lost his mind.
hes losing his mind. and we cannot have that.

i told people i was going to kill myself and the government came to my
"aid"

america, world, we are pathetic. but its so logical.
yet it's hidden.
and it has itself making its own self reflective propaganda. and it
convinces its people they are liberated and good.
the problem is
that we are empowered to act. and we try to act well, but no one
understands a damn thing.

i;m trying to find the relationship between the bastards and just the
way it is.

i guess i;ll become the man.

i still feel like i will see you tomorrow in class.

will you be there?

a link

i took this picture to print on my nude t-shirt, then just having this photo of me nude was sort of strange inspiring, and liberating.

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